Monday, February 16, 2009

Where's Brego?

He's right outside at the moment, but the question pertains to his blog. Where's the Brego blog?

It seems I am having false starts this winter/spring, and in some way I am. I get inspired to ride and then the cold, dark evenings makes me more inspired to read than to walk Brego up and down our icy driveway. The sun shines bright on the weekends, and then a 25 mph gusty north wind inspires me to appreciate the sun from the barn, or from the chicken coop.

It's still winter, but we're experiencing an early spring. I thought I felt it coming, but I wasn't sure until I heard a report from a friend, a neighbor, that a bear is out of hibernation, and Robins are back. Compelling signs. Also, as I drove to a friend's for dinner last night, I saw a forest of small blue tubing stretched from tree to tree. Someone thought the sap would start running soon. Sugaring season. It must be an early spring.

Regardless, back on the homestead, I have been incredibly busy with things NOT Brego. I try to get out everyday and run a metal brush through his coat, he's shedding terribly now. And I slip him some squash slices and we talk of old times. I check his blubber rolls and note miniscule progress. Brego is right here and he's doing fine.

This blog, however, is in danger. I've had some well documented security concerns come up recently (No, dear S, not you) which made we want to rip the whole blog down and never mention Brego's name in public again. Maybe just an eccentric fan of the big guy, but Brego is private property, housed on private property and nothing would ruin me more than losing him. Nothing.

So I want to pack up my toys and go home and keep our modest achievements to ourselves. And I am not hyperbolizing the modest thing. This year, I will likely not make a recognized event. I might just do local shows and wish Andrea good luck at the AECs from afar. I might not make it to too many lessons. I might condition the entire year for a good ride foxhunting, instead of a clear round eventing.

Lots of reasons, really. The economy takes all my precious money out of showing and puts it into my farm which will yield something equally precious called food. I am still unsure of how/where we will train and with whom. I am not thrilled with the Organization called Eventing these days, which chews up good horses and rewards bad riders. So my mind is filled with more and more thoughts, but I am finding less and less positive material to share on the blog, even if I could maintain some anonymity.

I mean, the reason people like the Brego blog is because we go out and do stuff. Well, how boring would it be if we didn't do stuff for a year while the farm got underway and money was stuffed in mattresses? What if the Eventing Percheron never evented at a recognized show again?

I think the most likely outcome is that the blog continues, with perhaps less posts, with some expectations set about just how awesome a middle-aged adult ammy can ride a fat draft horse three months out of work, with some idea that life gets in the way of sport.

As for the internet nutjobs... don't be one. I hate the few bad apples. I hate our modern world peppered with FEAR. I might take the blog private or I might continue to trust that most people are inherently good. That's a tough call I need to make soon.

A not so positive update (except the spring part!), but an update nonetheless.


33 comments:

Kitty Bo said...

I understand your concerns. I have enjoyed your blog, and even if you just talk about the weather, I have enjoyed that. You can make the blog private, as one of the other blogs I read has done that. You can approve those who subscribe. You have to do what you think is best. I would miss your blog, but I would also understand your decision to do otherwise. I'm sorry about your negative experience.

dp said...

Sorry to hear that you had a security breach. Are you guys considering a farm dog for the property? Nothing makes creepy strangers think twice like a large and angry canine. Titan never ceases to amaze me with his ability to distinguish friend from possible foe, and the quality of response when he meets a foe. After years of having pet dogs I am amazed that they can actually be useful too.

I will always read whatever you write with curiosity whether Brego is eventing at sanctioned shows or playing with a jolly ball. If you decide that the latter is not the right direction for this blog, so be it. I will watch the other one with equal interest.

I read most blogs because I feel a sense of connection (not the creepy kind) with their writers, and I think most people are the same. We read to get your interesting and unique perspective on whatever you're writing. Who cares if the blog strays from its intended purpose (something which I would know nothing about) if the writer is still enjoying herself? And that's the key, I think -- it should be fun.

SunnySD said...

Well that sucks! And it's scary. So sorry to hear you've had a bad experience. Hope you do continue to keep us all updated on whatever adventures you have with Brego, but I'd wholeheartedly understand if you decide to discontinue.

Alex said...

I came out of lurking (im not creepy I swear... ok... maybe i once accosted you and relished in sharing all that i knew about you... ok, maybe that makes me a tad creepy!) to say exactly what dp has already said... i read because i can relate to you- because you tell brego stories with enthusiasm and above all, i can tell you truly love your horse! keep the posts coming, we can wait- dont force things on our account, enjoy the boy and share when you can.

Daun said...

Thanks all. Just a point of clarification. No one has come on my property... yet. My concerns are over electronic exchanges with people that have no business asking the questions they are asking, or insinuating what they are insinuating. I won't say more about it publicly. But no one is in immediate danger, although it is scary enough. Someone is on the property 24-7, plus my four dogs, plus my nosy, gun-loving neighbors, and a loaded weapon.

If someone came on the property, there would be no more discussion. Blog closed. Charges filed. Period.

DP, and as soon as I get a slot or two in my dog pack, a working dog will be coming. Promise.

Jackie said...

Snowy trail rides, working up and down the driveway, leg yields in the neighbors indoor, playing behind trees in the one-acre paddock all count as doing something horsey! Us fellow horse bloggers at any rate just care about living with horses, competing or not. We've come to love you and Brego no matter what you are doing! So don't give up blogging on that account anyway.

Daun said...

I also want to say, that I don't want to jump to bad conclusions. People read the blog and assume they know me and they know Brego. But I don't know them! It's a very one-way medium, unless you comment regularly or I read your blog etc. Like, I feel like I know DP, but I don't and if I showed up on her farm and was like, where's Raven and Tonka, it would be weird, even though I feel like I know them.

So, I don't want to blow things out of proportion, but the amount of content I might have in the coming year makes the added security concerns not worth it. Possibly. It's supposed to be fun.

Funder said...

Yay that you're still going to share the Brego adventures with us, whatever they may be!

I think that if you're not going to sell ad space, you really shouldn't worry too much about what other people want to read. I mean, if you turned this into a programming haiku blog I wouldn't have much to say, but if you wanted to write programming haiku then you should do so.

(Actually, the Daily WTF would probably love code haiku, if you are ever so inspired.)

ANYWAY. Write what you want to write. Follow your bliss. Have fun with your time consuming and unprofitable blogging hobby, but don't sweat it!

Cate said...

Also coming out of lurking...

I'm so sorry to hear about the breach. That stuff is scary scary scary and if you don't take it seriously, why knows? But I do love living vicariously through you and Brego and I think your posts are great, regardless of how much showing and "action" is going on.

I'd hate to see you pack up and leave, but I'd hate more for anything to happen.

Austen said...

I am in total agreement! I first read your blog for a couple of reasons: 1) you could string a sentence together, and didn't sound like a 12 year old while doing it! 2) I couldn't believe someone else was using a draft as a competition animal. I was floored and excited.

Of course, then I kept reading. I discovered what an interesting person you are, and how inspiring it is to see your care of your animals. Then I also became addicted to your farm blog. My god, I'm like a stalker :)

I guess, I just have to say that reading about Brego isn't so much about the competitions and the goals as it is about finding the courage to break through the conventional beliefs about drafts. You do that every time you post, and that makes me happy!

sidetracked said...

I hope you don't stop blogging, I enjoy reading about not only the progress that you and Brego are doing at the time, but also your philosophies on riding and training. You live somewhat close to me and I'm sure I would see you at some shows at one time or another. Sorry that you have to deal with losers crap. I know whatever you do you'll make the right decision.

EvenSong said...

I agree with most of what has been said above: Do what you enjoy, share what you will, but don't take unnecessary risks, either on Brego-back or on the interwebs.

I have to admit to taking vicarious pleasure out of the fact that YOU are the one adjusting to New England winters, and NOT ME! Been there, done that, and although Texas ain't my cup o' tea either, I find myself each winter thinking about moving to warmer climes.

I don't think I've posted here very much, but do enjoy reading, and have refered to you on my blog. Feel free to visit there, to get to "know" me and my equines a little better. http://mountaintrailmusic.blogspot.com/

sylvia said...

you have to do what's right for you, brego, and your SO. if making the blog private or shutting it down is the safe and right thing to do, i support you. i completley understand your thinking....

i hope it doesn't come to that! who else can i live my life through...and who else is going to visit me in aiken? ;)

OnTheBit said...

Well I hope that whoever is making your feel even the slighest bit uncomfortable knocks it off! I have never really given much thought to what it would be like to meet someone who reads my blog who doesn't have one themselves...I don't think I would like it. As for not being sure about the purpose of the blog without competitions...I think that is not a great argument from my perspective because there are so many great horse blogs out there who have and never will win a ribbon. So what? I know I don't comment a lot but I do love to read about all the fun things you do and those include building a trough for your horses to drink out of from the stream. I think doing less updates is understandable, but I hope you choose to keep your blog public. If for no other reason then because seeing all the pictures of you with your draft at the dressage shows makes me feel like I might not be all alone in the sea of warmbloods with my horses of color.

dp said...

Haha...if you ever show up at Farcical Farm you will be greeted with utmost warmth and enthusiasm. But that's because you're precisely the kind of person who would not just show up at Farcical Farm. It's the human catch 22, I guess.

So far in life I have had little reason not to expect the best from people and I like it that way. Very disappointing that someone is giving you a hard time.

Daun said...

Again, thanks everyone. It's good to know that there's a lot of normal people out there who enjoy the blog. I appreciate every comment, even if it's about things I could do better.

Sylvia, Aiken? Did someone say Aiken? I will always visit you in Aiken.

Funder, Daily WTF, Fark and Something Awful. Um, could you step out of my head please. And stop reading the same web sites as me. Talk about creepy. :)

JJ said...

That is scary...It would make me want to take my blog down as well. A lot of people read your blog for inspiration and education (I am sure you have seen the posts; "Brego at the eventing Percheron did this and this and gave me the idea to do this and that with My Horse" so your blog would be missed...but if it is for a good cause (like keeping breach-ers at bay) I am sure everyone would be fine with a non-eventing percheron :) Your blog (for me, at least) is more about the training and the ideas than the shows.

sylvia said...

As long as we're okay...and this cyber freak doesn't come between my dream and you moving....er, I mean visiting me in Aiken...along with the gourmet chef too, of course.
((((Hugs))))

serensk said...

That sounds very scary! I'm coming out of lurking to say so. But I've been guilty of almost similar things. When tracking down my horse's dam I actually found a photo on a public photo site under a nickname, and then followed the "bread crumbs" until I found not only the current owner's real name and email address, but her age, where she lived, and her resume. I wasn't even trying that hard! At least she wasn't too worried about it, but it made me more careful about what I put out there.

I've been an internet community member for a long time. I've met friends that I "knew" for years before seeing them in person for the first time. But I've learned the difference between really knowing someone, and only superficially knowing what they choose to write in a blog.

Maybe going private is more your thing. After all, that's why I don't blog, per se, not like this. You never know who might choose to use what you post for malicious reasons. Unreasonable people exist. I like sharing my thoughts and exploits, digging for kudos or advice, spewing my thoughts and theories, but I also like being able to customise who can read them sometimes. I like having a public post one day, then a semi-private one with the photos that reveal a little more about who or what or where, for a select audience. I like a blog that my husband can read sometimes, but not when I'm whining about him. Blogger doesn't do it for me, but Livejournal does. LJ as a community is a bit more interactive, rather than one-way, and more forgiving when posts are more mundane entries in a personal journal, rather than big blog-like revelations or announcements.

Personally, I choose blogs and journals to read when I feel like I appreciate the insight the author shares, about their journey in life with horses, for example. Don't care if it's winning ribbons or just exploring the backyard.

Andrea said...

Oh no! That is definitely scary. I completely understand where you're coming from. If someone was being all creepy with my blog, I might do the same thing. Your blog does has a huuuuuuuuuuuuge following, so I assume there are usually a few bad eggs that come along with the tons of good ones.

I still really enjoy your blog, even if it is only about wintery goodness and all things Brego in the barn! It doesn't matter ultimately what we do with our horses in sport... it's behind the scenes that is the most important, at least to me.

Maximus said...

ugh, how creepy. I don't understand why people have to be so bizarre and think that reading something (or conversely watching them on tv or something of that nature) means they *know* them and have a right to be in their life for real. I have sadly had this happen to me (not about my horses) but someone who thought because they knew me from a message board they could look me up. If you feel ending your blog or going private I doubt anyone would think less of you for doing so.

Allison said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you are having problems with the internet creepies. I do not have the writing ability nor time to write a blog so I usually just read others and rarely comment. I follow your blog because I too have a percheron that I use for sport riding and really just find it interesting to see what fellow drafts are doing. Maybe you should just keep it strictly brego related and leave out information about your personal life such as job, home, and SO. Even if you just post once or twice a month I would still read. I don't know if you are aware of how inspiring you are to other draft owners but truly you are! I hope that you can continue with this blog, and if you make it private I suppose that I will have to stop being lazy and document some of my own riding adventures on a blog so that I can still read yours. I wish you the best with your decision.

operationmorgan said...

Daun,

I think a horse blog works best when people write realistically about their challenges with horse ownership, even if that includes scaling back showing, etc. Most horsepeople who read blogs (I'm guessing) are adult ammies who have jobs, kids, are going to school, whatever.

Writing about the struggles we face with giving our horse the best life possible when we have another, non-horsie life is really what its all about. My riding life has been rough since my horse's death, but I try to chronicle the good and bad about being a horseless rider. I hope you will continue to write about your relationship with Brego and know that I, at least, am impressed more by your attitude towards your horse than anything you would achieve in competition.

operationmorgan said...

Operation Morgan=McFawn

Mama2Arden said...

So sorry you've had a rough go. I love to write and every day I debate starting a horse blog but don’t… for pretty much the trouble you seem to be experiencing. I have been on the receiving end of some incredibly nasty nasty internet maliciousness. It can be surprising, damaging, it can be scary and you shouldn’t have to put a moment’s thought to it. No matter what you do with the blog, the work you have done to date is appreciated by me… I’ve sent a couple kids/teens here who were feeling a bit down about having a loud colored appy (or like) at a rated hunter show or those that needed to see that good horsemanship can make anything possible. And they come back and rave about Brego.

I know I found the blog at the start of my journey with Chi…when I realized I just LOVED my draft. Enough that I didn’t want another horse when a desire to return to the formal ring wouldn’t go away; I wanted to continue to enjoy her. I’m a dressage rider by training so I googled “Percheron dressage” looking to see if it was possible. A post from your blog was one if the listings. I’ve been hooked ever since. I’ll miss the blog dearly if you do need to end it…but I do thank you for having kept it.

Mama2Arden said...

PS.. I don't come here for the eventing... I come here for the joy you share with your horse. I've LOVED reading about the foxhunting...the winter trails and was looking forward to skijoring a la Brego... even the pasture pictures have made me smile during a tough work day in pharmaceutical land.

Boots and Saddles 4 Mel said...

I've just found your blog, but I hope you continue. I'm really enjoying it.

I try to be careful about posting any pictures where someone could I identify where I was. I do tell them I'm in Turlock, CA and I guess if someone did some work they could find me through a license plate etc. I don't use last names etc. I too hate the "fear thing" but it's easy to let it get to me. I would say more, but as this is a public forum that's it.

natalie said...

Another blog lurker coming out - I really enjoy stopping by the blog, but have never commented. The blog is public. Your farm is not, you have every right to expect people to be able to recognize the difference. As a wimpy winter rider and the owner of a percheron/welsh cross (not sure what possessed someone to cross these 2 breeds), I am really inspired by your work with Brego. I don't care if you don't have showing/eventing stories on your blog this summer - your ability to celebrate moments in your partnership - collection in the neighbour's arena or trust on a night time ride are what inspire me and give me courage with my own horse.

Jessica said...

I too just found your blog about a month ago, and I've really been enjoying it. It's so nice to see more people going outside the box with "alternate" breeds in dressage and eventing.

I've always loved the big guys and my next horse will probably be a percheron mare, so it is lovely to see how much you've done with Brego and how far he's come over the last few years. He's such a beautiful boy with so much talent.

Anyway, I really do enjoy your blog and I hope you continue to keep it up. It's understandible if you decide to remove it because of stupid creepsters, though - don't keep it up just so we can get our weekly Brego hit :)

Suzie (Echo) said...

Wow, that's pretty scary. I don't blame you for wanting to ditch the whole thig, but I would love it if you didn't! I've often wondered about the amount of informationI give. I have a friend who only ever uses initials in her blog, so as to keep some anonymity, but I have never opted for that, believing that it makes my blog more personal this way. I hope you get your head around it and this person leaves you alone.

Heila said...

If you go private, please can I be let in?

Daun I think you are right to protect you and yours, and what a pity that a small minority of creepy people can make life miserable for people who are normal (whatever that may mean!)

I enjoy reading your blog because I like the way you write, where you live is so completely different from where I live, I learn horsey stuff and perhaps all programmers have a subconscious link of sorts. :) Hmmm... or maybe just the horsey ones.

Heila said...

And of course I think Brego is gorgeous!

sally said...

I found your blog yesterday from New Zealand .....have hunted clydesdale crosses for the last 6 years and just loved reading about your horse and what you are up to.Its lovely to read about similar minded people ......stay who you are